Sometimes one ( read, I ) is not always sure about parenting decisions. Even the minor ones can sometimes seem to require deeper scrutinizing, why did I decide that, did it work, who was it benefiting, am I being a good mom, will my kid bring this up in therapy whe they are 30, was that the most important thing at the time?
I also know and believe that being so inquisitive is surely a sign that I am being as concientious as I can be in my decisions at the moment. Motherhood specifically (parenting in general) can intone an unbearable weight in our society, an insurmountable duty but yet we do it daily and many before have, as many will in the future. Ask anyone, part of their damage, issue, festiveness or neurosis is partly due to their mother or lack there of.... But we keep on (most of us) and we love (all of us), no matter the odds, hoping praying believing that it
all balances out.
I choose to Believe when I mother and to trust my heart
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